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I had a very good evening tonight.

it's funny what kinds of little things can bring back memories. just a bit ago i got that feeling in my fingers when they're frozen and then you come inside and they feel like they're burning, and it reminded me of being a kid and wearing snowsuits and mittens and building snow forts :) awww... i miss that.

i had to shovel the sidewalks in the back of the house today, and in one place there was this little circle of footprints where the dog had run around in circles. haha. it was cute. i hated to wreck it

Music: RMB - Deep down below (airscape remix)

tonight I was really sick of trying. I didn't given up though, when I get like this it only makes me want to try harder. I like to think I hate that about me, and maybe I should just learn when to give up. but I'm glad I don't.

I completely changed this entry from what it originally was. It's strange, I feel completely different than when I started writing it, even though the circumstances are all the same. I think the best thing to do when you're feeling sad is to do something nice for somebody else. at least, that usually works for me. yeah, nothing's changed. but at least I can look at it in a new light. maybe things aren't so bad.

I'm very glad that there's so many people out protesting the war in Iraq.

I'm very glad that Colin Powell appears to be relenting a bit.

I'm glad Iraq is showing some signs of cooperation.

I just hope nobody does anything stupid.

This morning at 9:00 I woke up, and got out of bed. That's a very strange thing for me to do on a weekend, especially considering I didn't go to bed until 1AM. Usually I sleep in until at least 11:00 and often noon.

Oh well, I won't argue with the 3 extra hours I get in today :)

Music: skycamefalling - to forever embrace the sun

People keep invading my office. Yesterday the lady I work with and our boss had a meeting in my office, and I wasn't invited. They just kinda came in, grabbed some drawings from my desk, and then looked over them and talked about them. I was doing something completely different, and they totally ignored the fact that I was there. hah

Then today I left my office for a bit, and when I came back my boss was leaned back in my chair, using my computer, and talking on the phone. I wasn't brave enough to go invade HIS office in the meantime.

Music: rilo kiley - rest of my life

ugh. it's soooo hot in my office, I think I'm just going to die of heatstroke one of these days. It doesn't matter what I wear, it's always too hot. And I value my job too much to show up in shorts and a t-shirt. I think I need an ice machine in my office. Then I could drink ice cold water all day long. Maybe I'll put in a request. I wonder who handles those kind of things...

I've sure you've all wondered, as I often have, how your favorite DDR songs would sound on the original nintendo.

Music: elliott smith - angeles

I changed my mind. I'm not scared.

I know what it's like to say "I love you" into a phone and get an all but emotionless response.

It killed me.

But I don't regret it.

I know how many chances I've missed in my life, and how much I've regretted them.

I'd do it again even knowing things would turn out the same way.

Right now this will probably mean less than nothing to you, but even so I think you should know.

I don't regret anything I've ever done for you.

And anything I've missed out on because of all this, just tell them I had to see about a girl.

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